Ariana's Veil

Beautiful Christmas

2009-12-25T09:44:16Z

Such a tragedy life is...

Happiness; always cut short for death.

Tonight— I have cried. I am... and really, always have been aware of that such beautiful moments as tonight can only last so long until each second pulls away from that one real instant when you see lights brighten the smiles of the ones you love. You are alive... and there is an awe but sadden awareness in the air you breathe as you realize... that tonight will in years to come haunt your weary soul when you sit alone or abandoned. And would I hate my God for such beautiful times? I feel deep down that I should be angry, for I can feel just time passing by and counting down the seconds as the memories of past and present count up and give a sense of sadness to let a tear or two fall steadily down my cheek. But no *gently shakes my head* I am grateful that I have had the chance to gaze at the beautiful women in my life tonight and tell them of how their beauty astounds me still and feel my heart ignite in charm to see the little ones glee at the sight of just my smile.

I am young tonight. I am alive.

But I am aware— and I am broken.

~A.G.M

.For the Obsidian Heart.

2009-12-21T06:28:56Z

Touch the tears that fall like fire to feed your livid flame its subtle satisfaction.
You like the feeling of depressed, don’t you? And yet you reign in the happiness of hurt.
Strike the blade deeper into the heart of that one you love and kiss the blood in forgiveness to prove the honesty of your hurt.
Stoke her hair this one more time and trace the surface of her blazing flesh.
Remember the scent of that her body gave you and be quick to entrap her little heart again before she runs away forever.
Entwine your mind with all she is and find the desires to her passion.
You love her because she has made love to the immortal vicious of your being. You could never imagine another dark night without her peaceful embrace to calm your lurid mind, could you...

. . .

Walk the steps in hazed trance with only the haunt of your saintly voice to engrave the path upon my heart. And there I found more beautiful than ever with your gleaming flesh and eyes to charm the essence of your aura even more as you play in love the loveliest of music.

I felt your body cold and heard you ask for just a little. Mesmerized by such, your beauty! Alas! Your cheeks flooded with the blushing pleasure of my ecstasy. What must it be like to feel my memories fill the corners of your senses, only one like you could know.

But I am broken, my sad prince. Your embrace can only last so long until the sweeping grace of your true nature escapes from my too gentle grasp.O, but don’t leave me. Not again. So many nights you’ve disappeared from me, stalking every step I took to shadows in vile hurt because you burned to take hold my hand and guide me back to your dark heaven. End my suffering and lock your lips to mine at least this one last time.

Please, let me be with you when you compose the music of the night... I don’t want to miss you *frowns*

~A.G.M

ariana_2 @ 2009-12-19T04:29:00

2009-12-19T11:30:03Z

To compose the hue of cry— What symphonic mood sets the silver veil of that her beauty illuminates tonight. With only clouds to grace her in her elegance, but ah— always is she alone, no? These clouds will soon just waste away and her stars that once stood close dared not to stay. And off they went to reject her plea to play. Do they not all end to stray so away? Alone, alone and alone this image shall seize to forever be? Ah yes— I let a sigh escape my lips and out again I recite in my moon lit Hell tonight...

To compose the hue of cry.

~A.G.M

ariana_2 @ 2009-12-18T00:10:00

2009-12-18T07:11:07Z

INTO HER JOURNAL

. . .

But would I deserve what I considered best? There is no more beauty in it, this love I forced myself to be in.
I now dread, and regret. I am saddened and I must hold my tears till late. But what is it in a time? I wish to be alone, and alone is what I have always preferred.
*glowers* --Alone... the best it has always been actually. Selfish, is it? ...Perhaps.
And would I walk beneath the hidden moon in darkness to find in vain that there is nothing more? My god, I would.
But I long for a love that cannot be given... only dream, dream, and dream again to remember of some love my instinct has confirmed me that I have had, whether it had been in this life or of ancient past.
It is only soon until the passion play begins. And give in, I fear, to the darkness of the music you compose, I will. But until the rays of sun that still seize to shine upon your gloomy shrine fall into the sweeping haunt of dusk, will the seraphs yield to allow you one true breath.

To my unknown lovely: I dream upon a night when I shall finally then be with you. And beautiful will you be, for my heart will glee to just the sight of you.

...But where are you now?

Do you lie awake tonight?
Praying for the angels to at last entwine our paths?

You alone could ever break me from insanity.

~A.G.M

A Sin For What It's Worth

2009-12-13T04:17:50Z

But would I write something so beautiful and pleasant for your eyes to rest upon and read?

FOR MY TEACHER

To close my eyes and finally dream upon a paradise where I can love you.

Tonight I leave my mind open to think upon the moments when he and I would create such masterpieces together. — My teacher... such a beautiful mind you have. Adorned with the loveliest of creativity to allow your true nature to astound all whom meet you in it. I love you, mi Tesoro... so much the stars would be willing to cry and fall down the face of our skies just as tears have fallen from our eyes. You touch just the epic of the gods and with astonished wonder do you leave humanity. Paint for me, my love, if not than stand still as I capture your immortal soul on canvas. Shock the gods with intellect and charm for me the Thrones. A rose then would I give you so that perhaps you my then love me. And what a teacher you have been.. You have given me the proper definitions to translate who I am evolving into.

You are the reason why I am found.

Forever am I grateful of the wisdom and insight you have trained me how to find.

~A.G.M

Have Afflicted

2009-12-06T01:53:48Z

. . .

And you will leave me.
Go on and be beautiful...

Let the candle burn its life away.

But remember. I always loved you. You are my romantic bane, my passionate curse.
And I will die before you wish upon a time to see me.
To hear me sing your name again and feel my hands trace every inch of your existence.
Listen for my whisper when you lay without my embrace.
And that is when I will hear you whimper... ah.. you remember of the love you lost?... She is dead, my dearest.
And never will she breathe again.

Kneel upon each god and pray.
For again you’ll see me in our golden field.

~A.G.M

Inspirations From Past Moments Spoken.

2009-12-05T06:35:27Z

LETTERS TO AN UNKNOWN GOD

And then God ordered His seraphs to take a bit of Shakespeare and bind my mind with love bound thoughts.
And what was this dreadful disaster which He created?
A bit of everything He thought as He molded so my face, my limbs, and carefully curled each lock of hair giving it a tint of brown to gleam against His moon light Awe.
“And just some more of my Shostakovich to make this darling sing”.
O but let me sigh, my dearest God!
The bit of everything created too much of one thing!
Worth so much my mind takes in, intellect can only create genius until one is considered insane.
I will die before the world can ever have a taste of my wonder.
You and I most clearly know that.
To only think upon what will be said as I kneel before Your throne in Judgment.
And place my gaze into Your eyes I will as I hear You say how I have left You, betrayed You and have strayed.
And what of You?—My Dearest Sovereign... had You not left me to that deafening silence?
All those nights I went stumbling upon the nothing in the darkness just in search of You.
Ah, You did not think of the mourn You dared entwine me with, now did You?
You break my heart...
And I will watch all of life take its advantages with me and see just how much I was meant to take.

Call upon all nine Your choirs and whisper to Your dearest Seven on how You failed to save me from his sin.
And will You watch but grieve as Abaddon takes me to his deepest pit?
My God, my God, my God... I only loved you with no limits.

~A.G.M

ariana_2 @ 2009-06-30T19:59:00

2009-07-01T03:17:25Z

Hold my hand... I despise feeling so alone. Strange though isn’t it? That I dread on being alone yet welcome it always. I feel it’s better that way. I’m like a bloody poison ready to inject my venom into all who love me.

Yes... love me. You’ll end up hating me completely in the end. Let me be your little loved one, trust in me when I say I’ll more than satisfy you. — I need you. Yes. You, I need you. I love you. — You don’t know how much I long for you, I burn to feel your lips brush up against mine with a tease that leads to such endless swoons. I want you, — I always have. I dream of having you in my arms, locked to me, so close you can feel my heart pounding up against your tender chest. Let me love you just like you've always dreamed about being loved. *traces your neck then softly kisses you and whispers* Don’t deny me.

~A.G.M

ariana_2 @ 2009-05-17T23:16:00

2009-05-18T06:34:15Z

Expect me to fail in the worst of ways so that I may see a smile grace the tenderness of your lips when I succeed. I am nothing extraordinary, and I... can accept that *smiles gently*.

You ask me who I am, what kind of life have I had, and how I view this silly little world through these sad pair of curious eyes that tell the story for its self? Well, darling, hasn't anyone told you yet? I'm an actress. And a fine one at that. I'll feed you all you want to hear but never will you truly see what lies beyond this silver veil. Don't stare too long, my little angel, I'd be broken if the glimmer blinded you. *sighs* Spare me the dread, I am allowing you to label me yourself; I am after all... whatever your eyes want to see.

~ A.G.M

Desperation.

2009-04-21T02:57:41Z

Never would I have thought that I would let myself fall into this world of make-believe. Oh but how I feed my mind all the sufficient lies that I convince myself to be true. Damned be that bloody night I let myself fall in too deep. But how could I have stopped it from taking full control of me? My god, it’s almost impossible to not intoxicate my mind in him. Another able to capture ones imagination in such a way as he has done? Never, my dearest. It’d be a crime to try to replace what you have made. Slowly but so affectively, he injects all of his memories; those feelings and emotions. I find myself becoming just more like him. Not frightening, but more exciting. I’m anxious to see how well I’m learning. And what a fine teacher he has been, ha! He’s clueless on what he’s teaching. But yet, I confess another has managed to have charmed me. But no... I can not find myself to want him, nor any other that is presented to me. I’m annoyed by all I’m feeling and this damned silence only makes it horrid. Plus, the silly match making my family has been playing with is draining me completely.

*sighs and rests my chin upon my knee* In all honesty there’s quite the much on my mind tonight. I’d go beyond insane if I dared to just try and hide it. For a while now I’ve noticed my lingering in my faith.
I found my self walking in nights darkness and falling to see the stars grace the sight my tired eyes saw, almost blind from tears that wouldn‘t spare me just for a moment. I couldn’t believe just how far I’ve strayed away from what I once and always held so close. I was ashamed for the things I had asked when I wondered why and who was this God so many worshiped. Who was this God so many adored. And who was this God so many knelt before. And with such a strong passion? What a silly little girl I am. I had forgotten how to see the light. There I lay, in the moist dirt and glared up to that deep starry night. My God, if I should cry... then let me do so completely so that perhaps I may just breath again. There isn’t not one question I have asked that has never been asked before, and I only walk in the shadows of those who’ve been far worse lost before me. So in that I find a question for me. Do I have that much to pain in? I convince myself that maybe I’m exaggerating. But saying so only inflicts yet more anxiety. I tire of my surroundings and this isolation I’ve been condemned to live in only worsens it. Ah, but still I’m one so young. Do I not realize this won’t last long? And now aware of that void that feeds on drunken memories, I’m stuck in what do next. Oh, mother was right, too passionate, she says. My god, but it’s true. Every feeling that I feel is only amplified because I feel too much… I don’t even think that makes much sense. I‘m just... tired of drifting, really. *sighs* Oh.. I should rest. Escaping for a bit doesn’t sound like such a bad idea.

~ A.G.M

To My Dearest Angel,

2009-04-11T23:19:02Z

Down far in between hells deepest miseries I find you there withering still in denial
There, my Darkest Beauty, don’t mourn for what’s not gone yet
Breathe here every breath I give and take in every essence of all that I am
Breath for you, yes give you life and see just how I renew you
Lose yourself in all I am and watch this earth free you from your boundaries
Yes …. Beautiful my Darkest Angel, I take a simple stare and shiver
Touch these lips the ones you have so many times kissed and feel this passion that burns just for you
I crave to feel you, long to hold you, my body misses those simple pleasures only you could give me

~ A.G.M

Ah... but you cut me deep still

2009-04-05T03:48:40Z

Touch that silver stone where I can find my God awaiting
I can release all that I’ve held in, all that has hurt me
Engraved within my weary heart is every time I’ve heard the same things
No different am I really, I can admit to that one always
Oh but hold them back, these tears, I don’t want them to see me at my worst peek
Hide this hurt, it pains too much to not find what I’ve longed for and still seek
But lift my head, my sleepy angel, it’s become hard for me to follow
What an agony it really is to hear my cries now sound so hollow
Unwind for me my memories, let me bathe in things I’ve found peace
Ah, but where, my God?
Where has all the warmth of these things gone to?
And here still bound by you, my darkest one, you keep me firm in where I stand
I could never say goodbye to you, not even after all the countless times you’d deny my eager hand
Yell it loud for me!
My stubborn heart rejects to receive such a denial
Yes... I know right now I’m weak but if you wait you’ll see again the real me
Oh but I fool you still too easy
No, no game is being played but you have yet to still unmask me
See these eyes, these tears
Your words never fail to cut my soul deep
Alas, I hear your truth of just how much you’ve grown to hate me
But love me, dear, I can not stand to know how you despise me
Depressed still, my darling? I’ve tried to light your darkness with just small things
Little do you ever know I too hurt still, always and indifferently
It amazes me to see how well I can disguise from you such suffering
I am fragile, and you have dropped me
Forgive me if I’ve smile, and if I’ve cared to kiss you but I speak to you and find there’s still light left in this world after all

And now my eyes burn so and I haven’t enough tears to drain the hurt that you have caused me
I know you couldn’t care less so I don’t expect the slightest of your sympathy
And yes I can still say I love you always, even after all the shit you’ve said that has hurt me

~ A.G.M

*smiles* Ah, but I have to admit. You bring the best out of me. *sighs* I know I've been a bit too suborn in excepting your decisions, but believe me dear, I'm trying. Perhaps this thing I feel just may pass. But unfortunatly for you, it looks like you're stuck with the little girl that goes crazy when you say Ew. And jumps on you to give you 27 kisses. And who knows what other strange things *smiles*

ariana_2 @ 2009-03-29T18:05:00

2009-03-30T01:08:30Z

Let that tender kiss course its poison through my veins; alas I feel our pulse entwine as one.
Reign for me, my Goddess; bring back the lust and memory of our love..

~A.G.M

ariana_2 @ 2009-03-16T21:48:00

2009-03-17T04:50:25Z

Growing distant, love
I loose all sense in the words I speak when faced with you
Afraid of you, but in love with all you are
Sending this denial down to the core of my soul where I can leave it up to that little child in me
What I need, here I can not find
Disarm this insecurity and you’ll find that smile you so long to see
Read this..
And I can see acceptance
Or perhaps… instead a sigh of dismay because you receive this love from the one you don’t desire
Yes, the coward in me can’t face you with what’s true
Hidden not even well enough for the knowing of what you truly crave
No lingering doubts of an illusion are found when I speak of you
I’m sure of what’s become from what I once so hated
Search hear in me and you’ll find a piece of you
A side of you is cast in me
I reflect that very shadow you once hid in
Inspiring me, my love… you became what I thought you could have never become
Don’t ask me to forget you
And no matter what comes along never let the thought of me letting you go cross your mind
Surrounded by your name, I’m bound to you in that very way I once spoke to you afraid
But in the end… all I really am is just another child lost in your imagery
Same as any other, there’s no difference or much spectacular charm to fascinate your taste
I want you to know before I’m placed within the earths embrace that you’ve caught my imagination in unspeakable ways
You pierce my soul, slowly penetrating this heart that wants you in no way that any other can ever long for you
Sing to you this song of hurt because I want what I honestly could never have
I pray to capture your attention, to bring you to my plea
I need you as much as you need an other
I want you more than you could ever want an other
And I love you in no way any words I could ever choose to explain
"With that said this courage is born
And with this courage a kiss is given…
Don’t deny me"

~ A.G.M

Para Mi Tesoro

2009-03-12T02:46:06Z

Ah, and a vain child you are!
But no my little beauty
You have yet to strike my soul with fire
But don't doubt of that I tell you when I say the flame is there
Feed me all my fantasies and my passion won't course just through your ears
No, but instead through out your every limb
I'll have you kneeling for just more

~ A.G.M

Oh sweet heart, do not you see what you have?

2009-02-25T06:35:44Z

I give and give these honest words for love, and yet... I am not satisfied. What have I got to do to receive what I deserve? Most I give my love and wisdom to don't even deserve it. Pft, please, I can make them fall in love with just the aura of my charm. And what can their sweet little lover's do?? Nothing! Nothing unless you count the high emotion they get from having to deal with daily arguments. *sighs irritably* Mon dieu, how long must I wait? I know, I know, be patient. I know. It's just so difficult to cope with at times. *sighs* Perhaps it's better off that way anyways. It'll come, I just need to not give it as much thought as I have been giving it. And I know... I must not become jealous...

~A.G.M

My Devious Angel, Will You Ever Learn?

2009-02-19T06:50:50Z

Your silence is that strange calling that beckons me to your plea
Eyes of that of an angel yet you reign in hells seductive ways
Shock here every pulse I give to tint my blood in fear
To trust you is my greatest darkness where your hurt brings me to tears
Soon enough, my devil's angel
Will the world here those hypnotic cries
As the sunlight's elegant rays grace you in your shame
I capture your true essence for every single time I've touched you
To have such an effect on one, do you even believe the words you speak?

Pointless it is my darling...
To keep on loving you the way I have
Injecting all your pain within me, my God is there any way for me to ease reality?
Your voice echoing through warm nights as I try to make way for sleep
But not even there can my mind find peace
For you haunt my every damned dream

Don't lie my Sweetest Sin
You and I both know you need me more than I have ever wanted you
Leave me in these chains and karma won't hesitate to remind you who has loved you
Tell me who can satisfy your dreams and give you all you need
When you're broken there and crying, begging to the heaven's to spare you one more night?
I'll be the only one you find who'll lift you from your broken heart

You are my beautiful lover
But the fiend in you destroys the mere glimpse of beauty that is made

~ A.G.M

ariana_2 @ 2009-02-06T21:38:00

2009-02-07T04:39:41Z

I’ve never been one to sit and wait for change but tonight, I thought I’d do things a bit differently. Hours pass and still this emptiness that kills lays steep within me. Crying and yelling in the inside for a way to break away. Praying in the scent of lavender for some way to find this change. I wait, and my God does not respond. I’ve grown to truly hate silence. I despise every moment of nothing that I hear. I use to see the beauty that lies within what is silent but it’s turned to be my prison. I don’t like it when I speak like this. I should be ashamed for what I say, for there are far much more worse out there. Old memories of those who’ve I’ve kept close to my heart seem to be nothing but old dreams I keep revisiting. I wouldn’t want to blame it on the man that once held close to me because I’ve lost his voice within me, and I can not possibly give my opinion on a man whom I hardly knew because the memory fails to come to me. I make the best out of what I’m available to, but it’s simply not enough. I will not ask for one to care or to give me their attention because what they think will only be worse. Can they truly care? I think it’s just they can’t stand but to just want to know why an other morns. Today she said “I miss him” and I saw the tears weld up in those lovely brown eyes. I could feel the agony of that her heart crying out because she wishes just to see him again. I held on close to her and did not dare to let her go. I know this feeling and when I needed one to hold me, my arms were all that were there to comfort me. I made sure this would not be the same for her. After I made way home my mind began to drift again. The simplest things like long hallways can bring the vision of when those last moments occurred. To relive that day of when I saw him raise his hands to the heavens. And… to be quite honest, I think that’s what keeps my faith still strong. You know… I wonder. Maybe I’m trying to fill in the space that he left so open. The love of that man I never received still kills me every night. I despise my self, I hate me for the things that I’ve become. And I’ll be honest enough to say that I’ve truly turned out for the worse. That love that I crave, that love that I need, that love I yearn for to tame my heart in peace will perhaps just one day come. For now I suppose the moonlit street is all that calls for my attention.

~ A.G.M

ariana_2 @ 2009-02-01T21:43:00

2009-02-02T04:48:11Z

Slowly making his way up, he sends a shiver through my body
His kisses and those fingertips that tease my one desire
Oh that one desire to feel him yet again within me
That fire in his eyes that bring the beauty in what hurts
A clever little lover, he knows just how to make me burst
Whispers that he gives me make me want him even more
An endless ecstasy that I could have never in this life known
My wrists I feel trapped in his hands keep me curious of what’s next
Such a beautiful lover, he never fails to give me more
Give me more, my darkest angel, I crave to feel your length work in me
For skin so cold I can feel the heat of that his body holds
Just the mere sight of him is enough to bring me tears
Flesh like marble glistening like gold as the candles flame illuminates this world
His silk like fingers pressing up and down my back keep me in his lovely body
He tries to rise and stops at feeling my nails dig deep within his back
I become an addict to his lips, and he soon becomes my only god
His name he hears me sing out with such hypnotic notes, I sway at all he says
Yes he’s put me in a trance of pleasure, I’m completely unconscious of this present world
All words are lost when lips kiss and bodies tremble
Alas our pulse entwines as one...

~A.G.M

ariana_2 @ 2009-01-28T22:43:00

2009-01-29T05:49:52Z

~All words one shall speak will only vanish through the cliché of nonsense . The same story that repeats its self with everyone; so unhappy, so abandon, and just SO broken. Can it possibly be that deep within us we all somehow share the specific similar feelings? The same insecurities, and hopes? No… It can’t be.~

As I poured my soul out to the audience, I caught the quick glimpse of his eye’s watching me, observing all my gestures, delicately calculating all my moves. The only man in this condemned theater that intimidates my actions. I could feel my body tremble at his mere presence, or was it the silence of my audience when I fell in aching sorrow? To know that all eyes are on you as you secretly confess a broken heart that no one knows is your’s. I make my audience my lover, and I speak to them with fire, for only then could they understand what’s truly being given. The dim lights I can feel are right above me playing the role of that of heaven’s golden veil, to grace me in sheer elegance. Oh how they keep me from seeing clearly those below me, but I know that he’s still watching. Humble him yes leave him silent, give an act for him to remember. Then, my final words are spoken… I feel the breeze as red velvet shuts before me.There upon my golden stage I’ve left my mark for all to remember. Swiftly I make way to backstage where no lights can ever find me, and there I kneel upon the darkness and my weeping is all that breaks the silence. My heart pounds with awkward rhythm and I repeat the last words spoken . “I can love you my darling… in a way so vividly astounding. Why my dear, can‘t you love me?” Shhhhh… I feel him right behind me. His fingertips that send a shiver trace the surface of my shoulder. Then I feel the heat of that he whisper‘s in my ear, “Yes my angel, you know not of how long I‘ve loved you.”

~ A.G.M

Immortal Lover

2009-01-08T00:25:14Z

To whisper an Immortal's name like your's in burning passion. Yes I crave to know you deeper and I long to feel your presence. Speak to me my Broken Angel, grace me with your words of honesty. I sit beneath the silver light and wait for you to find me, and if you sleep then let my words awaken you to love me. Yes... love me, dear one, the way that I have loved you...

~ A.G.M

My Goddess

2009-01-04T20:15:24Z

Soft silky skin
The scent on lavender still lingering upon her flesh
Let me taste your lips again, flavored with the sweetest of sins
Rising up and climbing up the mountains on her body
She is the one I find my serenity in, the one that gives me fire
Oh let me have her one more night, let me taste her sweet desires
The Goddess that has loved me through this hell
The one that I'll always admire
She's not my saint, no not my angel
But my every day religion
My sweet and tender, suductive Goddess
Entwine me with your pulse in one

~A.G.M

ariana_2 @ 2009-01-03T17:28:00

2009-01-04T00:30:19Z

Help me dream again, dear I'm restless

A bran new year?...

2009-01-02T03:58:11Z

...*chuckles* I think it's rather pathetic how people have a way of thinking that just because it's a new year, you get to start fresh an new. Right... Nothing changes really. You're still stuck with yesterdays problems, and all of last months issues are still going to haunt you days from today. *sighs* I use to think this way. I still do to be quite honest. Every night I hope for tomorrow’s day to be a new start, but then again... I just crave a way out of the position in life I'm in, in general. I'm still a young one, and perhaps... I may just be going through what every one else goes through at this age. I hate to think that way though. I despise it when others say I don't know what I'm talking about because I'm still a kid, or that I'm just going though my "stages". Huh, funny how I'm wiser than most adults that have the nerve to say that to me. What I do look forward to this year though, is next New Years eve. *laughs some* I like to take a trip down memory lane every year and just compare the way I use to think to how much knowledge I know now. So in the end I guess I do make some sort of an idea that things will turn out for the best *smiles* haha, like I've said to my self more than enough times; I never really do end up making sense in the end.

Aww man! I was speaking to my Grandfather this afternoon to wish him a happy New Year, and he pops up with the "when are you going to find you're self a man". *groans* Honestly, I don't see how my family want's me to find some guy, when clearly all guys my age are complete and total jerks! All boys between thirteen through nineteen think about (not all) is basically just having sex and getting high off of Christmas bud. I deserve better than that. Most of the people I've dated have always had an intelligent state of mind. I can't stand having a conversation with an amature about how they fucked some fine ass girl last night (pardon my language). Last time I checked a book has helped me far much more than any man has. I told my mother and grandfather to just let me find "the right one" at my own pace. Another truth of mine, is that really... I don't want to even get married. The thought kind of keeps up on me in a place that I never wish to visit.

Well, that'll be all for this evening. My older sister and I have made a strange arrangement of plans *smiles*

Ariana

Nameless

2008-12-31T02:07:57Z

Sing for you my fallen angel, I miss the beauty of your life
I pray to bring your memory closer as this coldness kills tonight
My love you have deceived me…
So lonely have you left me with this tragic empty heart
All the memories of you embrace has cast away my only sun
And the moon that use to shine does not show her self at night
For what light can be light, if it is not you that is by my side…
And what love can be love, if it’s not you to kiss my lips
For it was you
My God it was you, the one I’d love for life…
But since you’ve left the nights have grow cold and these stars are to collide
For now it is I, the one to say good night
Good night to you my sweet dear angel
I miss you still tonight